But I want to fly!

Hey there fam!

I have some good news and some bad news. It's taken me a while to put what I want to say in words, but I'm finally able to talk about it with ya'll.

I'll start off with a story :)

4 weeks ago, my bishop looked at his part of the mission portal and said that my call would come that week. I was so excited! The week passed, and nothing came. The next Sunday came, and I asked him to look again. He looked, and with a puzzled look on his face, he said that my papers had been sent back to my stake president.

!!??!!

Because I can never get a hold of my stake president, I just went right to the source and drove to Idaho Falls that day XD I was able to meet with him, and he said missionary medical sent them back, and that they would be sending a letter with what they want me to do.

Fast-forward 2 weeks to the 28th of June. I finally met with President Jacobson. He read the letter to me. In it it said that because of some health issues, I have to wait 6 months before I can re-submit my papers. During those six months, I will work on the things they have asked me to do.

Bad news:

My mission papers have been delayed for 6 months because of medical reasons. 

When I first got the news that I was being delayed, I wanted to cry. And I did. A lot. I couldn't understand why I was being delayed. I had such a strong desire to go, and I wanted to leave right then. I didn't want to wait.

Good news:

While I don't know if there's another reason why I'm being delayed (like maybe there's someone I'm suppose to meet while I'm on my mission that won't be there unless I leave later), I know that this is suppose to happen right now. No, it's not pleasant. If I had my way, I'd be leaving July 22, the day after I turn 19. But, the wonderful, beautiful thing is, it's not up to me. Trust me, I'd probably mess it up. Right now, my life is in the hands of my loving Heavenly Father, and He knows what He is doing. He can see everything! And His timing is beautiful. His plan for my life (and your life!) is absolutely wonderful; full of happiness and trials, times of rest and times of growing. I know that everything is suppose to happen for a reason- nothing happens by chance. 

And hey, I'll get more time to work so I can save up money, and I'll get more time to spend with my family. And I'll have more time to better prepare myself for my mission, because I want to be the best missionary I can be. 

{And I'll get to watch the newest season of Doctor Who and Mockingjay Part 2, but I would have waited for those}

And, other good news: I've now lost 23 pounds, and this Saturday I'll be walking/jogging a 5k! It's a color run! I couldn't be more excited!

I have a little story for you guys.

On the Fourth of July, my family and I went to Heise Hot Springs. After we went there, we drove to the square ice cream store in Swan Valley (I love their ice cream!). As we were driving home, something hit my side view mirror. Next thing I knew, there was a monarch butterfly with a severely damaged wing sitting on my mom's stomach. Her wing was almost completely off! I was going somewhere around 35-45 mph, so I asked mom to wait before letting her back out. My mom tried to cup her down, but the butterfly kept trying to fly out of my mom's hands, as if she didn't know that her wing was broken. She just wanted to fly and be happy. My mom, seeing that the butterfly didn't want to wait anymore (I was waiting for a stoplight so we could let her out safely), let her out the window. Knowing how damaged the butterfly was, how fast we were going, and how many cars were on the road, I realized that she probably didn't make it.

That's when I had the feeling that the Spirit was trying to teach me something.

I am that butterfly. I have things that I have to work on, and because of those things, I'm a little damaged. My mom was acting in the place of Heavenly Father. He's telling me, "Wait Bekah. You need to heal before I can let you go on a mission. A mission is hard, difficult work, and if I throw you out the window right now, you might not make it. You need to wait." But I've been jumping and pushing against His hands, saying, "No! No! Let me out! Let me go! I want to serve a mission!" I have now realized that I really do need to wait. I need to get my medical things ready now so when I go on my mission, I'll be ready :) He loves me enough to make me wait!

So, right now, if you feel like you have to wait for whatever reason, or you feel stuck, please know that you are waiting for a reason. If you are in a hard trial, you are in it for a reason. You may not know now, but you will some day. I promise you that.

So, while I've had a few setbacks, I know that this is suppose to happen, and hey, I'll get to spend a few more months with you guys before I leave. It's all in His timing, and the Lord is never late!

I hope you all have a wonderful week! :)

Love your favorite adventurer,

Bekah

So, the past few days have been a little rough. I had to work yesterday (Sunday), so while I got to go to church, I still had to spend time calling people. I work at a call center. 90% of the time I talk to people who don't want to talk to me, and they make sure I know it (I've been cussed at many times, yelled at, made fun of... the list goes on and on and on). This week hasn't been too bad, but yesterday everyone was pretty mean. I mean, yes, they had a good reason to (with it being Father's Day and all) but they didn't have to be so rude.

I've also been working hard at losing weight so I can get ready for my mission. So far, I've lost about 20 lbs, which is great! It really is! But today, when I met with my nutritionist on campus, I found out that I bounced back a little bit. It was discouraging. I had worked so hard to lose that weight, and then it came back like nothing happened! But, I also found out that I've lost an inch around my waist!

But, because of everything that has been going on, from mission papers to work and everything in between, I learned today that I can't take life too seriously, because then I stress out and that doesn't help anything at all!

I learned that though some simple doodles. I started the taco one last night during work, and the others I did today. 

So don't be stressed!

Try not to worry too much! I know it's hard but try a little each day to find the good :)

Like, for instance, today I made my first omelette! I mean, it's super simple, but it had cheese and bell peppers and it was delicious, and I for one was very proud of myself! So try each day to find 3 good things that happened!

I'll start!

1. I made a very good omelette on my first try!
2. I got to work out and I worked so hard to make myself better! And even though I'll be sore, I will know that I'm sore because I worked hard and pushed myself.
3. I got to meet with my FHE family. I love them all very much. It's so much fun to plan activities and have fun and grow as a group!

See, that wasn't so hard! I bet if you can do the same thing, you will see your life change in miraculous ways! So remember, don't take life too seriously. Yes, there are serious times. But really, what I've learned in my first 11 months of being an adult is that we are all just really big kids masquerading as adults. So let your inner kid out and play! :) Be grateful! Stop and smell the roses! Because there will come a day when you can't.

I don't wanna be morbid or anything, but it's true. Take the time now to live right, be a good person, but also have some good, healthy fun :)

Have a great day everyone!

Love your favorite adventurer,

Bekah 

Hello!

Well, now that my blog is all set up and looking pretty, I should probably pop in and say hello!

My name is Rebekah, but you all can call me Bekah.

Right now I'm a Psychology major at Brigham Young University-Idaho.

And I love it here!

I want to go on and obtain my Master's degree in Counseling. I want to work with victims of abuse and sexual assault. 

Some other little (and not so little) facts about me

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Right now, I'm preparing to serve an 18 month full-time mission!

No, I'm not going to Germany (or German-speaking) even though I would LOVE to!

I have been a member my whole life! I was baptized when I was 8. I know the gospel is true with my whole heart and soul! Through my trials, I've grown my testimony. I now plan to go and serve the Lord for 18 months. Right now, I'm waiting for news about my papers. They've been delayed, so I keep praying everything will work out. I know it will though, because the Lord takes care of His missionaries. :) I'll be sure to post where I'm going once I get my call (so, who knows, I could still go to Germany!).

I play the Cello. I've been playing for 8 years.

Yep! That's me!! That was when I was in 8th grade.

I love the Cello. I think it's the most beautiful instrument in the world. It gives me the capacity to express myself and helps me see the beauty in the world. It's one of my favorite hobbies! For a while, I wanted to be a music teacher. While I still love music, and plan to teach my future children to have a love of music, I know that music education is not my calling. Music is still a huge part of my life, and always will be!

I crochet!

Now, I'm sure you are all thinking, "What? You crochet? But you're 18!! Only old people crochet!" Well, there's a little saying that I once saw that I feel applies to this situation.

"Yes, I crochet.

No, I'm not old!"

Sometimes I like to go on campus and crochet. People look at you funny because you don't usually see an 18 year-old crocheting, much less in public. I also like to crochet in church (it helps me focus) and everyone there has learned to accept it. I've made some great friends because of crochet!

There's something about the rhythm of a hook in one hand and yarn in another that brings peace to the soul... It's honestly one of my stress relievers. When it seems that I'm having a hard time, I just turn to the hook and yarn and everything works out in the end.

Well, I can't think of anything else! If you have any questions, feel free to ask me below! I'm going to try to post once a day to every other day, so please subscribe so you can receive updates! I promise I'll try to not bore you. :) I also want to use this as my mission blog after I leave, so I'll post my mission prep tips and other things too!

Have a great week everyone!

Your favorite adventurer,

Bekah