Fear not, little flock

"Therefore, fear not, little flock; do good; let earth and hell combine against you, for if ye are built upon my rock, they cannot prevail.

Behold, I do not condemn you; go your ways and sin no more; perform with soberness the work which I have commanded you.

Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not."

D&C 6:34-36

These past few months have been really rough for me. I've been trying to juggle school, work, health problems, and trying to re-apply for my mission.

I'm not gonna lie, it's been discouraging.

Really discouraging.

Last month, I got very sick. Long story short, I had to go to the doctor and an OBGYN and have an ultrasound (which is not fun by any means, especially when you're by yourself), almost had to go to the ER (thankfully I didn't), and racked up a $600 medical bill in one weekend alone (guess who met her deductible...). For a college student, $100 is a lot of money (Heck, $20 is a lot of money!). Imagine me when I got a $600 bill:

I was only freaking out a little bit. *please read that in a very sarcastic voice*

At the end of the weekend, I found out that I had PCOS, which is short for Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. (If you are squeamish or immature in any way, skip over this next part. I'll let you know when to start reading again) Basically, instead of an egg leaving my body after a fertile cycle, it sticks itself to my uterus and becomes a cyst. Yay.

(The squeamish and immature can start reading again)

I've been battling this since I was 14, but I didn't get an official diagnosis until December.

After talking to my bishop and old roommates that had served missions, I found out that there was a high chance that I would have been sent home from my mission to take care of myself, which would have been harder on me emotionally than staying home because of other health concerns.

Remember my butterfly story? Yeah, that was one of the things that tore my wings that I didn't know about.

But, it's given me other opportunities to serve! Last semester, I had the opportunity to take a family history class through BYUI. I learned so much and my love for family history grew. This semester, I have been called as my ward's family history leader.

If you know me, you know how much I love family history, and you can imagine my reaction to the news:

I was very excited.

I am also considering applying to a Young Church-Service Mission. You can serve from home, choose how long you serve, and you can put in recommendations for where you would like to serve. I am really hoping I can serve at the family history center in Idaho Falls or Rexburg! I'm thinking of applying for next year, that way I have time to save up and get ready. :)

And, while life is hard, things are starting to look up. When we follow the Lord, and acknowledge His hand in our lives, we are able to do so much more. He will protect us, and lead us on.

 "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."

Psalms 23:1-6

Love your favorite adventurer,

Bekah